She also alludes to the relationship with her mother.
This is just part one of the chat with Katie. It gets more twisted later.
He never even took out the instrument, he just said he needed to use my mouth
Griff: how was your lesson?
Katie: degrading
Griff: what happened?
Katie: never even took out the [musical instrument], he just said he needed to use my mouth
Katie: he kept spitting in my face
Griff: how did you respond?
Katie: I pleased him
Griff: what was the most degrading part?
Katie: he told me the only reason I'm in the program is because I'm easy
Griff: is it true?
Katie: yes
Griff: do you pay tuition for those tutoring sessions?
Katie: I have a scholarship
It makes me almost like a prostitute
Katie: I have a scholarship
Katie: so i guess it makes me almost like a prostitute
Griff: scholarship based on need? your talent? or something else?
Katie: an [musical instrument] scholarship
Griff: did you get it based on playing the [musical instrument] well? or did you blow or fuck someone during the decision process?
Katie: my audition with my teacher was a blowjob
Griff: that's when you got the scholarship?
Katie: yes
Griff: isn't America great?
Katie: lol
Katie: i'm getting an ed degree, so my playing isn't super important
Katie: music ed
Scholarship audition: “I looked at him with blowjob eyes”
Griff: tell me about the audition that got you the scholarship
Katie: i get really nervous performing.... so when I started playing, I started shaking really bad
Katie: i sounded awful
Griff: ok
Katie: and i started crying
Griff: were you in high school still?
Katie: yes
Griff: what happened next?
Katie: feb. of my senior year
Katie: he came over to consol me... i was sobbing pretty hard
Griff: pretty unprofessional on your part
Griff: go on
Katie: saying how I really wanted to teach music but really needed a scholarship
Griff: were you angling for sympathy?
Katie: of course lol
Griff: so, you were trying to manipulate him emotionally
Katie: he told me that he understood, but my playing wasn't good enough to let me in
Griff: what kinda guy was he?
Katie: he's in his late 50s, nice guy
Griff: how did you respond when he said your playing wasn't good enough?
Katie: i told him the i understood.....he was standing in front of me, and I was sitting down
Katie: i promised I'd be his hardest working student
Griff: ok
Griff: and then?
Katie: i looked at him with blowjob eyes lol
Mom had taught me... power over men
Katie: gave him a look
Katie: and asked what would it take to get a scholarship
Griff: you were pretty forward
Griff: why did you think it would work? what inspired you to try?
Katie: yes, but i tried to keep it subtle
Katie: desparation.... I really want to teach music, and \can't afford college otherwise
Griff: did your mother inspire you any? the way she uses sex to help her sell real estate?
Katie: i was more or less sitting cock level, so I kind of glanced at his crotch
Katie: lol.... I totally used her blowjob seduction look
Katie: I've seen her use lots
Griff: so what happened with the audition judge?
Katie: he knew what I was asking.... looked me up and down
Griff: and then?
Katie: he siad that I'll have to work extra hard
Griff: go on
Katie: then he reached out and gently touched my belly.... and rolled his eyes a little
Katie: I reached for his belt, undid it and slid his pants to the floor
Griff: how experienced were you giving head at this point?
Katie: a few guys in hs
Katie: but mom had taught me its power over men
Griff: had she talked to you about it?
Griff: or had you gotten the lesson by osmosis?
Katie: no... just from seeing her manipulate men....the audition was my first deep throat
First deep throat
Griff: had you watched porn with deep throating?
Katie: yes, but they're good at it! I gag like crazy, but that seems to turn him on
Griff: how did it feel when you knew you were going to over sex and he was going to accept it?
Katie: I was shaking so hard! even more than when I was trying to play
Katie: oce he took control.... i was able to relax some and let him use me
Griff: how did he take control?
Katie: when we were done, he told me that I had a scholarship, but I would have to work hard to keep it
Katie: grabbed my head and started forcing himself deeper
Griff: how did that make you feel?
Katie: sad and turned on at the same time
I don't like my mom, but now I'm like her
Griff: why sad?
Katie: cause I don't like my mom, but now I'm like her
Katie doesn't like herself
Katie: cause I don't like my mom, but now I'm like her
Griff: do you like yourself?
Katie: not since that day, no
Griff: you ever admitted that before?
Katie: no
Griff: how's it feel?
Katie: depressing lol
Katie: like I need to go find a man to use me
Can you make me feel violated? I need that
Griff: I am using you
Katie: lol how so?
Griff: I am inflicting psychological pain
Griff: to feed my need
Griff: it arouses me
Griff: and I take something from you
Katie: what do you take?
Griff: your self esteem, dignity
Katie: if you're hurting me, then why do feel such a need to talk to you?
Griff: I got a woman to tell me about being raped in a parking lot outside a bar when she was 35
Griff: after she gave me the details, I told her I was jerking off b/c I wanted to make her feel violated again
Griff: you feel the need to talk to me because I am like a vampire
Katie: lol
Griff: you can't resist flying to the flame
Katie: can you make me feel violated? I need that
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